Well, it finally happened. I had the "breakdown day" I have felt coming for some time.
Everything I saw or heard or thought of sent my thoughts to how much I miss Jeremy. It is not only his death that I thought about though. It was how long it has been since I celebrated Christmas with my family.
I had Christmas with Jeremy last in 2006. Haven't had Christmas with my mom or brother since about 1997, and my dad since 1993? I always believed children should be at home on Christmas morning. Now that I don't have that "restriction," the weather plays a key factor in my winter travels, making it hard to plan anything in the PNW.
I would give anything to be with my family at Christmas. It just can't be done.......not this year at least. Jamey is working today and everyone has their plans set. Maybe next year.....
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- I am 48 years old and have lived through my worst fear. Now I know I can get through anything.......
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I have gone through a lot in the last couple years. I have watched my son go away to school in another city, growing more and more into a man every time I talked to him. I have watched that same son turn right back into a 5 year old little boy when he became ill. He went from a 220 lb. man to a 114 lb boy, in a matter of two months. He was never the same after that. In and out of hospitals, barely a voice, one leg missing......
I lost him in April '08. I lost my son....my best friend. I blog to get emotions out. A lot of my blogging is about the fight to go on with my life; the trials of getting through certain days.
I will get through them all....some will just be harder than others.
Thanks for reading, feel free to comment. I love feedback.
I love you and miss you Jeremy
I lost him in April '08. I lost my son....my best friend. I blog to get emotions out. A lot of my blogging is about the fight to go on with my life; the trials of getting through certain days.
I will get through them all....some will just be harder than others.
Thanks for reading, feel free to comment. I love feedback.
I love you and miss you Jeremy
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